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Hello there!!!! If anybody is left to see my posts... (joking)

I'm a bit sad I broke my streak of posting every month of the year on here, but ah well. (Wait actually hold up I just checked and I've already missed March... Well.) I think taking a break from blogging (even casual blogging) was for the best. I actually took several weeks off all social media in mid-October and that made me feel SO MUCH better. Officially it was to avoid Z-A spoilers (I received the game later than expected) but then I was like man, it's nice to not have to worry about being active on Tumblr for a while or whatever. It made me feel less bad about my lack of creative endeavors, too.

Well, the latter is not a problem for me right now because I'm running on pure, undistilled Z-A brainrot right now. I've already written and posted three fics (which have been crossposted on

teamflare btw just saying just saying) I'm back to drawing every single day, and I have a 6-pages comic all sketched. I feel a little bit crazy but in a good way. The main downside is that I'm having a real hard time focusing on other things </3 but that's alright. I'm managing. I think.

I want to talk about Z-A SO BAD there's actually a full review I've been meaning to post for like. A month and a half at this point but I still haven't finished it. I'd like to do that before my birthday though. Instead I'm endlessly replying to Tumblr asks people have been sending me, which is also cool. Lots of FRESH!! AND NEW!!! blorbo material to discuss. Honestly I'm mentioning the review here in the hope that talking about it can get my brain to finally let me write more of it so I can post it here, which was my plan all along. Prayer circle etc.

What's new other than that... Hmm... The German classes I mentioned in my last post have been going great! I feel like I'm actually learning stuff, although it's still a bit slow-going. I can tell when people are talking about numbers, which feels huge as somebody who prior to this could barely count to 3 in German lol. We've barely just dipped our toes into stuff like dative and accusative at this point but I'm secretly hoping my years of Latin in middle school will come in clutch...

I posted the announcement for the next

perfworldweek round and I'm very much looking forward to what people will make >:) I need to work on more of the graphics for it, but right now it's crazy holiday seasons so I'm focusing on other stuff. (Such as the gifts I still need to finish. Aough.) Being motivated to draw again has been a huge help ngl.

I'm also doing the holiday love meme again this year!!! I really really really want to push myself to leave comments for other people because I tend to procrastinate on it and then I'm like it's too late and I don't have anything to say aaaaaa. Once again, saying this here to hold myself accountable, I guess. o9

✨ holiday love meme 2025 ✨
my thread here

It's also

fandomtrees season and my Z-A addled brain convinced me to sign up requesting exclusively my new ship under Pokémon, which is a first lol. I expect the few exchanges I'll allow myself to do next year will be heavy on them as well to be honest. (I even signed up to

consent_issues_exchange with only one fandom and one ship, which I'd never done before...)

Anyway... I'm convinced there was more I meant to write but I can't remember now lol. You should tell me what you think of Z-A in the comments or link me to posts you've written about it etc. I'm really curious!!! I will leave you with these Corbeau icons I made on a whim because I saw someone was using some of my Yoshi icons and I got excited. Enjoy!! 💜

( 15 Corbeau icons, mostly from screenshots )

By the way, and speaking of, the Pokémon icons community is still happening! I'm hoping to have it up sometime next week.

Current Mood: enthralled
Current Music: State of the Art - Gotye

nikkiscarlet

You know what? I’m beyond tired of “snark.” If a book is marketed at me as having “snarky” MCs or banter, I’m skipping it. There’s so much mean-spiritedness in snark.

Give me “goofy” characters instead. Give me “witty” characters. But above all, just please give me “kind” characters.

Current Mood: tired

nikkiscarlet

Screenshot of a social media — I think it’s from Threads? — post by user onelife_livedwell. The post reads: So much of healthcare still relies on the patient's ability to advocate, organize, and persist. But fatigue, brain fog, and systemic barriers mean those most in need often can't. Access shouldn't depend on who has the energy to fight for it.

Current Mood: drained

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Finn's physical degradation is being paralleled by the degradation of Fionna's moral backbone.

She's losing herself. She agreed to work with her friend's abusive, power-hungry mother (thus pushing him away), and is obsessively chasing this fantasy with Phelix despite him having a girlfriend. She doesn't recognize the effort her friends put in to the event. She is single-mindedly chasing this fantasy of being a hero, while, in reality, she is hurting those she is trying to "save".

The threat looms — both of a physical death (Finn), and a symbolic death of the self (the "Fifi" future).

Current Mood: thoughtful

bedes

A lot of people in the MILGRAM fandom (especially English-speaking MILGRAM fandom) state that Haruka is autistic-coded, as if it's fact. Most recognize that Haruka is coded as disabled. (If you didn't recognize that, I hope this essay will help to explain why.) However, to state that he is coded as autistic specifically is incorrect. Haruka is coded as intellectually disabled.

Now, there are likely two things that contribute to this issue. One is the invisibility of intellectual disability as a whole, and another is the fact that a lot of this has to do with things that only someone who speaks Japanese would understand (such as complex vs non-complex words in Japanese).

In this essay, I plan to lay out what an intellectual disability is and how it differs from neurodivergencies such as autism or ADHD. After that, I want to discuss the way Haruka speaks and uses words, the symbolism in his MVs, and how this lends to him being coded as intellectually disabled. Finally, I want to discuss why this even matters at all. Because, in truth, viewing Haruka as autistic instead of intellectually disabled leaves the viewer misunderstanding his story in a huge way that seems far too common in English-speaking MILGRAM fandom. So, I hope you listen to what I have to say.

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Current Music: Weekness - MILGRAM Haruka CV Shun Horie
Crossposts: https://fairyfic.dreamwidth.org/19146.html

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Rating: M

Fandom: MILGRAM

Characters: Muu Kusunoki, Rei

Relationship: Muu Kusunoki/Rei

Words: 2,467

Content Warnings: Bullying, slut-shaming, cannibalistic urges

Tropes: AU - Cakeverse, Internalized Homophobia (Muu), Metaphor, Angst

Summary: Nobody would think she was cute if the word got out that Kusunoki Muu wanted to eat her classmate.

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Crossposts: https://fairyfic.dreamwidth.org/18924.html

bedes

Rating: G

Fandom: Great God Grove

Characters: Click Clack, Thespius Green (mentioned)

Relationship: Click Clack/Thespius Green

Words: 932

Tropes: Internalized Homophobia (Click Clack), Autistic Character (Click Clack), Character Study, Denial of Feelings, Unconventional Format

Summary: Click Clack carefully edits his thought process (lest it leads to something he's not yet ready to face).

He can't let his mask fall off, after all!

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Crossposts: https://fairyfic.dreamwidth.org/18649.html

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Rating: G

Fandom: Splatoon

Characters: Marie, Callie (mentioned)

Relationship: Callie & Marie

Words: 1,309

Tropes: Aromantic Character (Marie), Character Study, Coming Out, Unconventional Format, Seasonal, Worldbuilding

Summary: For our pride month special, I was honored with being the first to interview Marie since her coming out earlier this month made waves!

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Crossposts: https://fairyfic.dreamwidth.org/18423.html

bedes

Rating: G

Fandom: Pokemon

Characters: Bede, Opal, Chairman Rose (mentioned)

Relationship: Bede & Opal

Words: 3,201

Tropes: Banter, Character Study, Domestic, Families of Choice, Fluff, Hurt/Comfort (light), Seasonal, Worldbuilding

Summary: Bede seems inherently avoidant to discussing both his past experiences with the holidays, and learning about the Fairy-types he's supposed to master. However, he, notably, does not seem to avoid the subject of food — and Opal can work with that.

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Crossposts: https://fairyfic.dreamwidth.org/18111.html

bedes

(Cross-posting from the holiday_wishes community.)

Hi, hello! My name is Azure, and I'm a queer and disabled young adult, and certifiable fandom geek. I'm look forward to fulfilling some wishes (I have a few bookmarked and fulfilled a few already!). In the meantime, here is my list!

˚˖𓍢ִ໋ ୧ ✉️ ‧₊˚ .⛸️ ❄︎ ⋅

1. Help me move! I'm currently saving up to move out of my parents' home! They forbid me from going on HRT, so I'm trying to move ASAP. Plus, I live in a red state with lots of anti-trans legislation.

My Paypal.me is here, and my Ko-fi is here!

2. Comments on my fics! I am AzureMist on AO3, and some fandoms I've written for include Dungeon Meshi, MILGRAM, Splatoon, and Pokémon, among other things! If you're familiar with any of the fandoms I've written for, from 2021 onward, I'd really, really appreciate it if you could spare some kind words!

3. Rec me your favorite indie games! I loooove indie games!!! Especially queer indie games. If you know any hidden gems fitting that description, please, tell me about them! Break out your niche itch.io faves!!! Some of my favorite games along these lines include In Stars and Time, Bad End Theater, Celeste, Fields of Mistria, Great God Grove, Smile For Me, Our Life: Beginnings & Always, and Dead Plate! (No games with incest, please.)

4. Digital giftcards! Specifically Nintendo eShop, Steam, Pokémon Center and DoorDash gift cards! I have a long gaming-related wishlist, so if you could help make even a dent in that, it would be very appreciated. The Pokémon Center is the official Pokémon merch store, and Pokémon is my one true fandom, so it makes sense why I would love some items from there (especially Pokémon plushies, as I collect them)! And lastly, DoorDash cards will be used for yummy holiday treats like cookies~!

5. Pledge to support the Starbucks strike! I know, I know, believe me, I know! This is the best time of year for Starbucks! But Starbucks workers are currently undergoing a national ULP strike to end the company's union busting, and demand better wages, amongst other things. I worked for Starbucks for a brief time this year, so it'd mean a lot if you could pledge to not cross the picket line.

6. Paid time on Tumblr! I'm azuremist! Tumblr is my main online platform of choice, so I'd get a ton of usage out of it.

7. Art of my OCs! I'm basically always looking for art of my fursona and persona! Since they're both fat like I am, it can be hard to find artists willing to draw them, so it'd be super appreciated. Linked is a page with each character's information and gallery!

8. Steam games! Steam gift cards too much of a hassle? I understand. (What kinda digital store doesn't let you send an e-gift card by email? In 2025??) Then maybe consider gifting me a game more directly with Humble Bundle! Specific games on my wishlist include Great God Grove, Volcano Princess, and Ikenfell! (Maybe even get me a surprise game, based off of my likes listed in #3? Yes, this is me inviting you to try to indoctrinate me into your video game fandoms!)

9. Support for my art accounts! A share, a kind comment, or maybe even a follow for any of my art accounts would warm my heart!! It's brutal out here for us artists online in this day and age... I am primarily active on Tumblr and Bluesky!

10. Spare my beloved's site some kind words! This one's a secret, okay? Don't mention that I sent you! But my long-suffering husband has a simple website! It contains things like some of his art, and a work-in-progress guide to shiny hunting. Pup often gets discouraged with pups site, and hasn't updated it in a while because of it. So, please consider looking around, then signing the guestbook at the bottom of the homepage with some kind words!

˚˖𓍢ִ໋ ୧ ✉️ ‧₊˚ .⛸️ ❄︎ ⋅

Thank you and happy holidays to you all! My email is azures.mist@protonmail.com, and my Steam account is azuremists!

Current Mood: thankful
Current Music: Maybe This Year - Eggtan

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Whilst I very much align with the idea of "art is about your personal experiences with it and your own interpretation", I do understand how some artists (especially indie artists) may begin to demand that nobody else interpret their art in any other way than the intended vision.

Creation of art is a deeply personal process. So to see others saying that the artist's intent doesn’t really matter can feel very disrespectful. It can feel like their art is being taken from them, while leaving the artist themself out of the picture. As if their art is a piece of content, and while everyone loves the art, nobody cares to consider the person who made it.

I don’t think this point of view is correct at all, but I can understand why it's so common with artists. I think that more artists should view others interpreting their art in a way personal to them as a way that art is successful, rather than a failure at the supposed objective of “making others understand my intention”.

Current Mood: thoughtful

bedes

It's funny that "a Berdly" is now used colloquially to mean "a character who is obnoxious in a funny/silly way, used affectionately", because for those first few weeks after Chapter 2 released, the vast majority of people were saying Berdly was transphobic and lesbophobic and killed their grandmas. The Weird Route’s discovery did insane PR work for him. Crazy what almost dying can do for an autist!

Current Mood: reminiscing
Current Music: Smart Race - Deltarune OST

bedes

I looove that Silent Salt isn’t able to see White Lily as separate from Dark Enchantress. It reinforces the flaws that were already established previously, via his treatment of the Virtues.

His beastly traits are that he is ruthlessly unforgiving, and that he dehumanizes others. Silent Salt sees others as their duties and their duties alone — their struggles do not matter.

Current Mood: accomplished

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Neat month.

Hell's Bistro - chapter 4, gregclair

You make me perfect - gregclair

Unrevealed exchange fic - alvaluca

One day we'll meet again - xichdon

Love through food - bingqiu

I have some more stuff that's meant for december so that will come around soon. I had fun all things considered.

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It's end of November, so time to update on the stuff I've been working on until the end of the year. Made some nice progress if anything!

Mandatory stuff

Finished all the exchange fics, reverse minibang fic and another zine fic I completely forgot to mention in the initial post, whoops. If anything, all the important stuff with a deadline was done

13/12 fic

The lovely fic for gregclair day was done, I loved what I did with it. You can see it here. It ended up being a little bit rushed, but I still loved what I did with it. The original idea I had for the 13/12 fic wasn't done, but I will leave it up for Gregor's birthday since it fits the occasion there even more since the focus was more on him.

Tfthy

Well. I didn't get to work on this much. I finished my main goal, so there's that. At least I am happy with how that turned out. I will continue on to work on this fic in the future, tho I wished I planned this out better to have it done until today.

New stuff to work on!

Sighed up for another exchange. Will be a lot easier to work on this time. This is the last one of the year (i hope) so it's a nice way to end it with a cute selfship exchange.

Some new challenges were also added: the Depress December for that angst material, or as I called it, 'Gregor torture month' because of how many prompts I can use with him. That, coupled with the next thing I will talk about, is going to be hell of a month for him when it comes to my writing because I sure do like to put him into situations.

The next event is the Macrocest Bingo Night Edition, which I primarily took for DMNoir works, as I do need to write them more, and IDV overall as it's been a while, but also decided to go 'fuck it we ball' and added some categories for Hermann/Gregor specifically, mainly to challange myself. I then ended up asking for another bingo because I wanted to try and do one just for them, but we'll see how that goes when I get it, as the waitlist for the next one is quite big, for the first one i waited a few days.

Creative bingo

Situation is the same as the last time, nothing changed. I will try to fit some of the prompts from the up events into this one too, as this is a personal thing and not a proper event. Some have a good potential to be done. I to need to finish 'Let me down slowly', that one has been on hold for way too long.

Everything else

One more Lifeless Stars chapter before end of the year. That much I need to do at least. I was hoping to finish it this year but things never go the way I plan it, so that was not a surprise lol. One thing I would love to do is more IDV fics. I've been lacking for a while as I've been focusing on Limbus in the last few months. I also need at least two more Antodrew fics before I can work on my January 5th one that is going to be special this time. At least more special than usual.

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living in a post-pokémon z world...

Like congrats on being unpleasant I guess

Relating to this hard right now.

Finn/Fionna Parallels

Haruka Isn't Autistic-Coded – He Has an Intellectual Disability (And Why That Matters)

MILGRAM | Lipgloss Flavor

Great God Grove | A Fickle Editor

Splatoon | EXCLUSIVE: Marie Cuttlefish on Coming Out, Invisibility, and Being an Aromantic Idol

Pokemon | Moon Cookies and Other Remedies

Happy Holidays To You! (2025)

Death of the (Indie) Author

"A Berdly"

Silent Salt IS a Beast

November fic summary

Macrocest Bingo Night Edition (card 1)

End of year writing plans - November end update

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