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Idk if I'll go with the rest of snowflake challenge, not really feeling the questions in the last few ones. If the last few are fine I might just skip the ones I don't like, since certain things are hard for me to properly talk about or even thing at times.

I've been very eppy and just not in the mood for a lot of things in the last few days save for a little bit of writing. Will probably make some posts for ideas I've been having. It's mostly gregclair cannibalism stuff since I've been fixating on that a lot, and I do wanna continue with my long fic on that.

I also decided to pick up Endfiled. I don't know anything about Arknights besides the bit from the Limbus collab, but can I really count that as knowing something? I've only started today with very little to go off since I've had classes, so I might play a little before bed or tomorrow.

Right now I'd just love to get to the groove of it back, mostly with writing. I've been doing a bit here and there but besides that one fandom empire fic not much else has been done. I'd also love to get the team challenge one done, but idk if I'll have it finished even if it doesn't end up being long.

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Challenge #12

Make an appreciation post to those who enhance your fandom life. Appreciate them in bullet points, prose, poetry, a moodboard, a song... whatever moves you!

Is it silly to say that reading today's challenge actually kind of filled me with a genuine sense of dread? Imagine my internal sense of self running around my mind palace in circles, screaming, "NOOOO, BEING BAD AT THIS IS EXACTLY WHY I HAVEN'T STARTED RESPONDING TO COMMENTS ON MY WRITING AND ART UNTIL RECENTLY AAAAHHHHHHH"

But! I think it's important to make fancreators feel appreciated. There's been an issue worsening with the online climate, where people just want to consume, consume, consume, and then just... leave. Comments on fanfics are down significantly compared to the early days and, although I don't have any proof of this, in my experience, it certainly feels like fanart is being shared less. On Tumblr, this issue is especially bad, where likes don't even really do anything to help with reach. I don't like it. I don't like that the fandom community is feeling less like a community.

That's exactly why my New Year's resolution this year is to comment on fanworks (and general art) more. Specifically, I want to comment on at least one piece of art or writing, every two days. I've kept this up so far, and, you know, it's easier than I thought it would be! I spend most of my time on Tumblr where there's a very quick and easy reply feature, so I've just been replying to the art that I've come across that I think is especially impactful in some way. And that's the sort of thing that I like to do! Instead of writing thank-yous (and making myself throw up in the process, probably), I like to show that I'm thankful for somebody's contributions to fandom by supporting them in other ways (that don't make me want to throw up).

Does this response even really meet the letter of this challenge...? I dunno, but it's true to myself and how I interact with artists online, at least, hahaha!

Current Mood: nervous

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Signed up for the

pmanniversaryexchange at last. I was putting it off until the last day as usual lol.

Did some writing for

fandom_empire and this week I actually have something for the team challenge, but due to ao3 being down I don't think I'll be posting it today. It's not helping that I'll be out the whole day tomorrow, so I might not even post it then. Oh well. If I do finish it, I can try posting on the phone, but it's annoying when it comes to tagging non-canon tags. Hopefully it will work with the specific ID tags when I do have to post there.

I've also been eyeing some causal events over on tumblr. The heart x horror event where I just saw the prompts and thought 'this is a sous-chef Gregor x Sinclair event to me' but I should consider other ships too. I'm thinking of Antonio/Andrew could work at least.

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Challenge #10

Choose something you love and create a mini mood collection of three (or more) items that evoke your feelings about it. You don't have to limit yourself to visual media, or collect the items into a special format like a square (though you can if you'd like).

Subject: In Stars and Time (indie video game)

Moodboard:

A moodboard for the game In Stars and Time. It is in black and white, and has themes of time, timeloops, stars, acting, and pretending to be alright

A moodboard for the game In Stars and Time. It is in black and white, and has themes of time, timeloops, stars, acting, and pretending to be alright

The same moodboard as before, with an image of Siffrin overlayed on top of it

Playlist (click the "play" button):

ENCORE!

1:07 / ∞

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THE RECORD PLAYER SONG ☆ Daisy the Great

"i need a dictionary
someone look me up and define me
please remind me who i'm supposed
to be around you
so you will do what i want you to
i'm always winning the wrong game
i don't remember my real name"

FLIGHT OF THE CROWS ☆ Jhariah

"well, i think that i've gotta go and i don't know why
but i need you to promise me that you won't cry
'cause you'll be fine and so will i
so, just let me out of your mind
in the morning, you'll learn i disappeared off into the night so quietly
that your love for me will vanish, too."

LOVE LIKE YOU ☆ Steven Universe OST

"when i see the way you look
shaken by how long it took
i could do about anything
i could even learn how to love like you
love like you
love me, like you"

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Challenge #9

Talk about your favorite tropes in media or transformative works. (Feel free to substitute in theme/motif/cliche if "trope" doesn't resonate with you.)

Since I already talked about my all-time favorite trope last year, internalized homophobia, I'll talk about another favorite: character studies!

"Character Study" is actually my most-used tag on AO3 (if we're not counting "Betaed", which I don't), and that's because I absolutely adore both writing and reading them. The name of the game is exactly what I love about fanfic: getting into a character's head.

In writing, it's a very fulfilling exercise. It's an exploration of the character in question, and how you (you, specifically!) interpret their actions, their motivations, and their mental state. And, in reading, it's a fun way to explore how other people interpret the character, helping you appreciate your faves through a fresh set of eyes!

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Snowflake Challenge promotional banner featuring an image of a wrapped giftbox with a snowflake on the gift tag. Text: Snowflake Challenge January 1-31.

Talk about your favorite tropes in media or transformative works. (Feel free to substitute in theme/motif/cliche if "trope" doesn't resonate with you.)

So to me there are 3 categories of favourite tropes: the ones i love to write, to read and both. Note that obviously i do like everything I write when it comes to tropes, but i'd say not all of they fall under the favourite tree. Sometimes some things are a lot more fun to write than to read about.

( tropes i love to write )

( tropes i love to read )

( tropes i love to write and read )

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A bit ago I made a request box, mainly for the purpose of people sending ships and prompts to request for writing, mostly as an optional thing to do if I feel like it. Felt like a nice thing to do, especially as it could be a fun way to write for some ship and characters I normally don't, haven't really though of before or simply didn't know what to write about without a prompt or something of the sort.

I've gotten maybe 2 requests, but neither of them are actually specific enough for me, since they don't have an actual prompt. I think people might not be aware what a prompt is, somehow. I think it would be fun to sometimes get those, but I haven't really shared it much besides the initial time when I made it. I'll probably put the link to it in my pinned entry here too. I do need to update the ship lists too, mainly the Limbus one.

With canto 9 now properly done, I am not okay still, lmao. Way too many stuff going on, without saying too much, imma need an intervallo follow up on everything that happened with Gregor because what the fuck? I often joke how I love torturing him in my writing, but after that, the most he's gonna get is mild inconvenience for the next few months. Let the man rest. Okay, I'm exaggerating, but still. Lets just say that the next few fics will be a lot less intense than I initially planned to.

I was initially thinking of writing 'Psyche Luger' once Febuary was done alongside the 'Sinclair lies about his age' fic, but I do think that after all of that I'll move it for later just a little bit. I do have a specific gregclair fic that has been on my mind for a while that I want to write for Gregor's birthday (my boy has the worst case scenario for everything with the birthday being 29th Febuary) which I initially wanted to write for gregclair day. It feels like it fits more for the birthday as it's from his pov and how he feels about Sinclair compared to what I wrote for their ship day. I think it's better this way, not to mention I wasn't particularly in the mood to write that one at the time.

I also went back to the project moon kink meme after a while, I'm already seeing canto 9 stuff. That last one as of the day I'm posting with Gregor is quite interesting, I'm not gonna lie, but I don't think I have the skills for that. I would love to write some of the fills from there (i have some marked for writing but I haven't gotten around them yet) but I always feel like my personal ideas kinda go first. There are some neat ones I'd like to do sooner or later though.

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Snowflake Challenge: A flatlay of a snowflake shaped shortbread cake, a mug with coffee, and a string of holiday lights on top of a rustic napkin.

Talk about your creative process.

It's kinda all over the place really. I usually don't outline much, but rather have a general idea of how I want the story to go. How it starts and how it ends is usually the main thing that I need to get the story going, and how I get from point A to B can change during the writing process. This is very noticeable with my longer works, since they change their overall shape a lot more. One shots are more stable as they take less time and aren't as broad as longer works. I've been trying to outline some things, as it might help with actually sticking to a more cohesive plot, but it's still rather loose.

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Challenge #8

Talk about your creative process.

I could've answered with a few different creative processes (art, editing, coding, essay writing, etc), but ended up going with fanfic writing, because it's definitely the most uniform!

1) Inspiration
Sometimes, the ideas that pop into my head get added to my big document of fic ideas to write at a later date! Other times, it takes over my soul and torments me until I exorcise it via writing.

~~1.5) Make sure that you take your attention medication on the day(s) that you're planning to work~~

2) Outline
Basically every writing community I've joined seems to expect outlines to come in paragraphs. My outlines, however, have always come in bullet point lists. This stage is extremely informal, to the point that I will often slip in little jokes for myself. (Probably my favorite example: a bullet point dedicated to the statement, "KEEP IT LIGHTHEARTED, YOU ANGST-LOVING FUCK!!")

Sometimes, I'll have multiple bullet point lists. The one that I always have is the plot outline. Other, optional lists include inspiration for the intended tone (lines from movies, poetry, etc), ideas I'd like to touch on at some point without knowing where they would fit (for example: "I'd like to imply that this character has (XYZ disorder)," when that's not the focus of the fic), and/or notes on the research I've done for the fic. (Research is a part of the outlining phase, as well, when applicable!)

( Continue? )

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two log cabins with snow on the roofs in a wintery forest the text snowflake challenge january 1 - 31 in white cursive text

LIST THREE (or more) THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF. They don’t have to be your favorite things, just things that you think are good. Feel free to expand as much or as little as you want.

1. My creativity
2. My will to go on despite everything
3, Writing. I just love that I am a writer, even if many people don't see fanfic as something serious or think fic writers are good writers. I'll love that about myself to the end of the world

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FOUNT OF KNOWLEDGE HAS CHRISTIAN-CODED DOUBTS AND HE STRUGGLES WITH HIS FAITH!!! I WIN!!!!

I used to prayyyy for days like these... and it's so much more explicitly about struggling with religious faith than I thought they would make it!!! Clicking my heels and skipping and whistling a lil tune in response to my guy being psychologically tortured the way I'd hoped

Current Mood: jubilant

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Challenge #7

LIST THREE (or more) THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF. They don’t have to be your favorite things, just things that you think are good. Feel free to expand as much or as little as you want.

I did this all on my own. I definitely did nooot need my husband to help me come up with these. Nope. 100% naturally Azure-grown! *Lying*

1) I like being an artsy person
2) I like that I can make my friends laugh
3) I like being tall

Current Mood: discontent

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Challenge #6

Top 10 Challenge.

I struggled for a looong time on what subject to use for this, but I finally settled on my top 10 favorite vocal synth songs released in 2025! (With links!)

( Bonus: Top 10 under the cut... continue? )

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: Q&A - ぴーなた

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Was not a fan of the new Shadow Milk costume at first, but it’s slowly growing on me, specifically as a potential alternate universe where Shadow Milk fell into repression.

First, there’s the outfit itself. Shadow Milk, as we know him, is obviously associated with Satan (the snake form referencing Eve and the apple, opposing Jesus/Mary figure Pure Vanilla, the tree of knowledge, etc etc). He abandoned his duties as a religious figure. So, why does his crown have a cross on it? Plus, the fact that he is now a king with a sword, as opposed to an androgynous jester with theatrical associations. He’s so much more traditionally masculine — his hair is even cut short.

Which is kind of horrific, in and of itself, right? We know that his hair is alive; would that not be akin to cutting off a limb? And he looks so tired… Shadow Milk has bags under his eyes in his usual form, of course, but it’s the eyebags in combination with the small smile, upturned eyebrows, and the scar.

We can assume that this version of Shadow Milk is some sort of soft roleswap with Eternal Sugar. Perhaps, in this universe, Shadow Milk feels he is unable to be loved unless he scrubs all of his traditionally-queer forms of self-expression away?

... What does that say about Eternal Sugar, and her relationship to gender expression?

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Top 10 Challenge.

I will just do the numbering of my 10 favourite fics that I've written. I could go in detail, but honestly, it's kinda hard to do that right now so I will just do it like this. From no. 1 to 10:
1. ma petite fleur
2. Lifeless Stars
3. Never ordinary
4. christmas kids
5. My funny valentine
6. It's bloody and raw, but I swear it is sweet
7. My sweetness
8. the glory at my feet
9. Mine and mine alone
10. Hold me until I die

If you get interested in any of these do know that most have some sort of an archive warning.

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Decided to try out the fannish 50 in 2026 challenge that's ran on

goals_on_dw I've seen the event last year but decided not to participate, so this time it's a first.

This post is the masterlist of everyhting which will have the links to all the challenges. I won't be sticking to a theme, so everything goes pretty much.

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Challenge #5

In your own space, create a list of at least three things you'd love to receive, a wishlist of sorts.

I'm sooo happy to see a version of this challenge back! I loved fulfilling people's wishlists last year~ As for myself, I have a couple! (Don't mind the soft-recycling of my holiday_wishes list...)

1. Help me move! I'm currently saving up to move out of my parents' home! They forbid me from going on HRT, so I'm trying to move ASAP. Plus, I live in a red state with lots of anti-trans legislation.

My Paypal.me is here, and my Ko-fi is here!

2. Comments on my fics! I am AzureMist on AO3, and some fandoms I've written for include Dungeon Meshi, MILGRAM, Splatoon, and Pokémon, among other things! If you're familiar with any of the fandoms I've written for, from 2021 onward, I'd really, really appreciate it if you could spare some kind words!

3. Digital giftcards! Specifically Nintendo eShop, Steam, Pokémon Center and DoorDash gift cards! I have a long gaming-related wishlist, so if you could help make even a dent in that, it would be very appreciated. The Pokémon Center is the official Pokémon merch store, and Pokémon is my one true fandom, so it makes sense why I would love some items from there (especially Pokémon plushies, as I collect them)! And lastly, DoorDash cards will be used for yummy treats~

4. Support for my art accounts! A share, a kind comment, or maybe even a follow for any of my art accounts would warm my heart!! It's brutal out here for us artists online in this day and age... I am primarily active on Tumblr and Bluesky!

5. Paid time on Tumblr and Dreamwidth! I'm azuremist on Tumblr! Tumblr is my main online platform of choice, so I'd get a ton of usage out of it, and I'd love to get more icons on Dreamwidth!

6. Spare my beloved's site some kind words! This one's a secret, okay? Don't mention that I sent you! But my long-suffering husband has a simple website! It contains things like some of his art, and a work-in-progress guide to shiny hunting. Pup often gets discouraged with pups site, and hasn't updated it in a while because of it. So, please consider looking around, then signing the guestbook at the bottom of the homepage with some kind words!

7. Steam games! Steam gift cards too much of a hassle? I understand. (What kinda digital store doesn't let you send an e-gift card by email? In 2026??) Then maybe consider gifting me a game more directly with Humble Bundle! I have a lot of visual novels on my wishlist; specifics include Canvas Menagerie, Love Curse: Find Your Soulmate, Afterlove EP, Necrobarista, Heart of the Woods, and Letters From a Rainy Day -Oceans and Lace-.

8. Consider joining and posting to my Dungeon Meshi comm if you're a fan?

dunmeshi I try to keep the community active by doing reoccuring posts, but I don't think anybody else has ever posted to it except in the comments. Rec something (including self-recs), post your meta, art, anything at all!

My email is azures.mist@protonmail.com, and my Steam account is azuremists! Much love~

Challenge #11

In your own space, grant someone's wish from Challenge #5.

I decided to combine Challenge #5 and #11 into one post, as, upon Challenge #11's release, I found that this was something that I actually already did, and kept track of, in my original post for Challenge #5!

( Wishes I've granted )

Current Mood: grateful

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Last year I started working on a fic called 'Cabin on the top of the mountain', as it was one thing I put on the 2025 bingo for myself. This year I didn't directly plan to work on it, but just kept it for the 'free space' place in mind, mostly since I did complete the goal for it then. However, last week, I outlined a haseli fic mentioned in this post. It's set in the same universe as the one I worked on last year, just focusing on a different ship and the events of it come after the haseli fic. It got me more into brainstorming and working on some details, a good thing since I do believe my writing would benefit from some planning over just going with the flow when it comes to longer fics with more chapters.

Because of this, I realized it would probably be a good thing to form out a family tree. As a lot of the characters in idv that are used in this AU are based off of gods from Cthulhu mythos, I thought it would be good to properly mark who is who and their relationship for when everyone starts inrteracting with one another.

( The AU family tree )

Now on the actual stories: I have plans for 3 main longer works, all featuring three different main ships: Hastur/Eli, Jack/Ithaqua and Alva/Luca. I will be focusing on the haseli fic now since it's the first one and the only one I have everything outlined for the story so far, but I will be working on the jackitha one on and off as I do have the 1st chapter of it finished.

I don't expect to finish this by the end of the year, but I do feel like having more stuff to work on the side without posting it right away is good for the creative muscle.

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Snowflake Challenge: A warmly light quaint street of shops at night with heavy snow falling.

In your own space, create a list of at least three things you'd love to receive, a wishlist of sorts. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it and include a link to your wishlist if you feel comfortable doing so.

1. More dreamwidth paid time. I've been enjoying it mainly for the icons and I will be a little bit sad when it runs out in a few days.

2. Anything related to the ships I love. Mainly Joseph/Aesop and Gregor/Sinclair. I am very bad at saying what I like specifically sadly, but I really love those two so anything for them will make me happy. If anything, you can look at my ao3 to see what I like to write about them and use that as a starting point.

3. Comments on my fics. There are some that don't have any, so those would be the ones I would be the happiest about. At the end of the day just showing some love to my works is good enough.

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Snowflake Challenge 2026 #12

just talking

Snowflake Challenge 2026 #10

Snowflake Challenge 2026 #9

Snowflake challenge #9

request box, future writing

Snowflake challenge #8

Snowflake Challenge 2026 #8

Snowflake challenge #7

Foremost Thought on the Cookie Run Leaks

Snowflake Challenge 2026 #7

Snowflake Challenge 2026 #6

Flowers of eden and the next fics in the series

Shocking No One, Azure Once Again Talks About Gender in Cookie People

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Fannish 50 in 2026

Snowflake Challenge 2026 #5 & #11

Yet another seires plan + the family tree

Snowflake chellenge #5

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